Reflection

This weekend was a weekend of reflection, or as my wife would call it, being moody and depressed.  There is a lot of change taking place in my life at the moment, especially in the area of work and as we are but creatures of habit, sometimes change can scare us.

As part of my 5km loop there is a inner relief road that I run along which is 1km long.  This straight flat road is lined on both sides by deciduous trees, all the same type.  On my last run, the 7th of November, as I ran along through the beauty of the golden leaves I noticed one of the trees was still all green.  I wondered why was this.  Was it younger?  Was it planted later in the season?  Was it just fighting the change?

As I ran the loop today I noticed a few trees were getting bare, others were still beautifully golden and as I ran I looked out for my green tree.  As I got to it I noticed that mother nature had finally caught up to it, although it was still fighting.  Half its leaves are still green but the other half have started to turn.  All of this got me thinking, why do we fight change so hard?  One thing about life is that it is constantly changing and we can spend so much energy and time trying prevent change from happening or worrying about something we have no control over.  With change comes new experiences and new opportunities and if we are awake, aware and alert the changes can be beautiful too.  We just need to look at it a different way.

Taking this into my running, I ran my heart out today but didn't manage to break the 25 minutes for 5km.  I could get annoyed by the change in my times that lack of exercising has brought on or I could look at the opportunity that this brings.  This is a time in my life where I need to be mentally strong.  While I don't have much time to run long runs, I have the opportunity  to once again focus on my developing my inner strength by pushing through shorter runs that are tought for me now but previously would not have been so hard.  Maybe it is something I need now and change has brought this to me

Words of wisdom from the Dalai Lama

"If you have fear of some pain or suffering, you should examine whether there is anything you can do about it. If you can, there is no need to worry about it; if you cannot do anything, then there is also no need to worry."


I didn't blog for my run on the 7th but here it is